I started 2017 with a barrage of emotions hitting me from all sides. Between the 1st and the 4th of January, I not only got hurt badly by someone but I also received the best news I’ve ever had, so fair to say I was a little all over the place. I realised though, that unfortunately, I seemed to be having more bad days than good. Whether this was to do with what happened or the fact that every time I looked at the news I couldn’t help but sigh, or the bleak fact that it was always grey and rainy outside, I don’t know but I needed to make a change – that much was clear.
I tried several ways to get out of the ‘winter’ rut I had subconsciously entered into. I went to the gym loads, I tried meditation every time I started overthinking things and I kept myself stupidly busy catching up with friends. While this was all great at keeping me distracted, I still felt like I needed to be a bit more positive about everything. So I decided to head back to basics and start logging all the positive things which were happening to and around me.
So I went out and bought a diary which only gives you enough space to write one sentence per day, and started to fill it up. Whether it be a new haircut, trying a new restaurant or even finally jumping into a long hot bath after a stressful day in the office, I always try and write something positive. When I first started, I didn’t think I would keep it up. I have tried keeping diaries in the past but they always fell to the wayside and I would forget about them for months on end. This time, I’m happy to say, so far so good – and it’s making a difference. Whenever I’m feeling a bit down or a bit depressed with the world in general, I just read the recent entries and it makes all the bad stuff seem a little bit more distant. For example, some of my recent entries include:
“Went to see The Book of Mormon (again), obviously downloaded the soundtrack and now find myself singing ‘baptize me’ out loud – definitely receiving some interesting looks from strangers”
“Full on retail therapy day today. Goodbye all my money but hello shiny new boots *insert several love heart emojis here*”
“Managed to go to the gym two days in a row – I’m basically an athlete now”
I know that I’m always going to have good and bad days – that’s just life. I also know that currently, I am far from alone in this. It seems, that to everyone I have spoken to, January has been a really tough month. For me it was particularly bad, what with everything that is happening in America, to the sexism I’m seeing all around me (I saw pillowcases this morning labelled ‘housewife pillowcases’) and due fact that yes, it is still raining and no, I don’t have a dog yet. But here’s looking at the bright side of life. Right?